behind the screen
hellllo, i'm missy. i pretty much love blogging and tweeting. i'm 15 and a sophomore in high school. i'm pretty much random. i love to write, and i want to be a journalist. well, i guess that's it. so, bye, lovely.
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behind the screen
hellllo, i'm missy. i pretty much love blogging and tweeting. i'm 15 and a sophomore in high school. i'm pretty much random. i love to write, and i want to be a journalist. well, i guess that's it. so, bye, lovely.
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Hi. I miss you still… but I know that you already know that. You know that every single time I look at you, I get really nervous, and it’s impossible for me to look into your eyes. You’re little snide remarks don’t really help that much either. The whole “you pretending to miss me” thing gets really old. I know I’m rambling, but your smile melts my heart – cliché, I know, but it’s the truest statement I’ve ever made. Your gorgeous, big brown eyes are like staring into the most beautiful tree in the world (it was between a tree, dirt, and a cup of coffee – I don’t know anything else to compare brown eyes to.). I’m still trying to figure me out. Feelings don’t matter right now anyway, considering you have a girlfriend (it’s not like it’s that serious or anything though; you’ve been dating for, like, a week). I want to be your girlfriend. You’ve know that for almost a year now. I wonder if the whole “flirting” thing that everyone was talking about was even real. Were you just playing with me? Did you ever have any feelings in this at all? Or was it all just pretend? I hope it was real. I check your Facebook and Twitter ever day just in case you maybe posted something about me. I ask your ex-friend what all you’ve said about me. I try to pretend you aren’t slowly killing me, but it’s hard. I can barely breathe when you are sitting in class behind. What would I do if you were next to me? Or maybe the better question is, what would you do if you were next to me? I wonder if you’d still flirt with me the way you used to, or if you’d whisper in my ear the way you did. I’m curious to know if you’d tell me how much you don’t like your girlfriend, like you always did about the last one. God, I miss you. It’s just so hard. Part of me wishes that you’d see this so that you’d know exactly how I feel, but the other half tells me to leave you be, you were never good for me anyway. Why is it so hard? Is it this hard for you too?
Love Forever and Always For All of Time,
The girl who wants you, oh, so badly.
Rob talking about a stalker he had in Spain.
Hmmm (Taken with instagram)
day 01 - your favorite song - Like We Used To - A Rocket to the Moon
day 02 - your least favorite song - Down - Jay Sean
day 03 - a song that makes you happy - Daughters - John Mayer
day 04 - a song that makes you sad - Letters From War - Mark Schultz
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone - Teardrops On My Guitar - Taylor Swift
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere - Indiana - Jon McLaughlin
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event - Have You Forgotten? - Darryl Worley
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to - Mockingbird - Eminem
day 09 - a song that you can dance to - TiK ToK - Ke$ha
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep- Jar Of Hearts - Christina Perri
day 11 - a song from your favorite band - Everything I Ask For - The Maine
day 12 - a song from a band you hate - Addicted - Saving Abel
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure - Please Be Mine - Jonas Brothers
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love - Stay - Mayday Parade
day 15 - a song that describes you- The In Crowd - Mitchel Musso
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate - Jesus Take The Wheel - Carrie Underwood
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio - Stereo Hearts - Gym Class Heroes
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio - Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
day 19 - a song from your favorite album - Better Than Revenge - Taylor Swift
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry - Broken Man - Boys Like Girls
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy - What the Hell - Avril Lavigne
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad - The Freshmen - The Verve Pipe
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding - Everything - Michael Buble
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral - 100 Years - Five For Fighting
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh - I Just Had Sex - The Lonely Island, Akon
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument - Bridal Chorus - Wagner
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play - And So It Goes - Billy Joel
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty - Back To December - Taylor Swift
day 29 - a song from your childhood - Life Happened - Tammy Cochran
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year - Lullabies - All Time Low
AWE, she’s wearing a “I partied way too hard with John Ohhh” shirt!
i have to reblog this.
I’m writing this, even though sixteen isn’t really all that far off, just in case I forget anything important before then. Let me start by reminding you that boys are stupid. I’m sure you’ll remember the one boy in particular I’m referring to: Tyler Jackson. Why did we let him get inside our heads? Don’t believe boys, I guess is what I’m trying to say. They lie and flirt and pretend to like you, but then date some other girl and ignore you. I still have feelings for him, as you can tell. Hopefully, you won’t, but, I mean, who actually knows. We’ll forget about him eventually. Rule number two: Don’t swoon over every boy that you see. In the end, it’s just not worth it. Most of them don’t even know who you are. Just because a boys talks to you nicely, doesn’t mean you have to fall head over heels in love with him. Okay? Okay. Get that through your head. You’ll get a boyfriend eventually but not if you creep every boy out, which brings me to the next thing: do not stalk people. It’s weird, and it makes people not like you, so just quit already. Next, girls are generally overrated, and you’re going to lose friends. It’s the way life is. Sarah wasn’t worth it. I guess, high school gets the best of some people. As for Taylor, well, we’ll see how things go; they’re looking brighter now. Jessica is probably your best friend, so hang out with her more. Kayla is super nice, and you shouldn’t be mean to her, EVER. Plus, her parents love you. Lauren Parker is sort of two faced, but she’s always been there. Try not to talk bad about her behind her back. She’s been through a lot. As for Danielle Gruel, tolerate her. She tries to be a good friend, even though she’s awkward and weird. Your dad loves you. Remember that no matter what. I know sometimes you honestly hate him, but he really is trying. Be nice to Mom. Don’t make fun of or criticize her. I don’t know how the whole sister situation is at the moment, but always remember, that no matter what, Brooke, Ashley, and Desi do, they are your sisters. Love William, David, Caylee, and any new nieces and nephews to the fullest extent. You don’t want them to hate you when they’re older, and you don’t want them to turn out like Jordan, Jackson, Jamie, or Jamie’s brother, Christopher. Remember, kids will be kids, and you can’t change that. They’re only little once, so let them be little and have fun. Well, I guess that’s all I have to say. I mean, after all, you’re going to remember writing this since it’s the future. You’ll probably write one back to me, but I’ll never see it because, well, I’ll only get to be fifteen once, kind of like I only get to be sixteen once. So, I’m sure I’ll try to live it up, and cherish every moment.
Love Always and Forever,
Your fifteen year old self.
Please note: all names have been changed.
